I don’t know anymore. I’ve gotten so stressed out. It seems like no one is ever really helping. I mean sometimes I feel so alone, even when I’m with a bunch of people. To be honest. There are people who get me and I love that I have those few. But at times I rather just not even open up. It hurts inside. When I stop and think about things and just everything in my life. I start to cry. It hurts to know that my parents don’t get me at all. They think I’m a huge lying/slut of a daughter. I don’t understand why they have all this hate. I have only had sex with 1 person and he is currently my boyfriend.  I only lie to them because they never gave me trust in the first place to do things. I just seem to hate my life more and more every day. There are just so many things I wish I could do. I wish I was skinnier, I wish I was smarter…well I guess those are things that I want to  be..but my parents don’t want me to be with someone that gets me and makes me happy. Idk..I’m just so fucking depressed and shit..and half the shit I say on here doesn’t even go into all of the shit I have going on in my life.